Working, and achieving, has always been at the heart of what I do and who I am. Until recently. My perspective on my life and life in general has shifted. I no longer believe my career is the most important thing, I now believe that my life and happiness is. I’ve done well to get to a well paid job in my mid-20’s, I’ve worked very hard to get where I am. I’ve bought a beautiful home, I’ve got a well paid job and I’ve got a wonderful partner and relationship. Workwise, I recently have felt my interests shift, my ambitions change. Maybe it’s getting to my mid 20’s and having a mini crisis about what I’m doing and where I’m going, or maybe it’s because I’ve had some lemons to deal with and it’s moved my perspective. Whatever the reason, my career has taken a back seat. I’m learning to be OK with that.
So – why would this be titled ‘taking your next life step’ when I’m not thinking of taking any steps? Because in not taking any steps, I’m taking a step. I’m taking a moment. To focus on what really matters – my life, my family and my happiness. I’ve often felt working full time just leaves no time for your actual life, and you spend your life working for someone else’s dreams. I guess what I want is to work for my own. Maybe that’s not financially, maybe it’s an experience thing. I don’t always have to be moving at 93457398 miles per hour, but I do. I don’t always have to be reaching unrealistic goals for myself, but I keep trying. There’s nothing wrong with that, but it means that now I’m sat here, coming up to 27 and thinking ‘What do I actually want?’ whereas for the past few years I’ve been moving with a sub-conscious motivation to not stop. So I guess now I feel like I might want to stop.
Stopping sounds horrible. If I’m ever associated with giving up, I hate it. I don’t give up and I certainly don’t want that characteristic as part of my identity. So you could say I’m struggling with this change of perspective. But more so, I’m struggling with not doing what gives me a fire in my belly. Blogging absolutely does that, but I simply don’t have the time to get a post up enough – or maybe I wasn’t prioritising it enough before.
Has any-one else ever felt in their late 20s, or at any point that there’s a massive shift in their mentality?